Random, literally

Filed under: Daily Life, Ranting on August 8, 2008 — 521 words

Here’s a run-down on the past few days:

A creepy drunk guy came into my work, tried to joke with me about the prices of the shirts, came back into the store and KISSED my hand. I thought he was going to shake it as an apology for being an asshole but nope, he decided to slobber all over it instead.

The security guards at my work are like dogs in heat. We smile and say hello, they think it secretly means that we think they’re hot and want to have steamy, passionate sex with them. Can I get a no thank you?

I’m sick. As usual. I took a benadryl (stupidest thing EVER to do right before work) and was doped up off my rocker at work last night. I don’t even remember what I really did last night. All I know is that I was exhausted from the medicine and talking alot to people.

Besides all that though, I’ve been incredibly pissed off lately. Pissed off that my boyfriend got fired, pissed off that he keeps putting applications in with no phone calls back and pissed off at my mother. Ah, my mother. I’m so sick of her excuses. She hasn’t done her taxes and because of that, I have no received any financial aid. My tuition was extended but it’s now due in 10 days and she still hasn’t done shit about it.

Her excuse? Her tax guy is on vacation. I told her to find another guy but that just lead into yet another argument. This is why I’m glad I don’t live with her anymore. I love my mom more than anything but her self-destructive behavior when it comes to paying bills is what I can’t stand. She procrastinates, she can’t stick with a job and makes up excuses about everything. And when I try to talk to her about it, she says that I “don’t understand” and that “she’s the adult, not me.” I laugh at that because I’ll be twenty-three at the end of this month. I pay all of my bills and have not asked her for a dime since the day that I moved out over three and a half years ago. She’s frustrating me so much right now and I don’t need anymore stress at the moment. This is why I’ve been keeping our conversations brief and to the point.

I feel like my life has been one big disappointment after another. You know how some people feel like they just are born with bad luck? That’s me in a nutshell. Every time I feel like I’m finally happy or life is starting to turn around, that’s when my whole world falls apart. And I probably sound really melodramatic but it’s really how I feel. I consider myself to be a positive person but it’s been really hard for me to stay positive when inside I am so depressed right now.

Ugh, so much for a sort of happy blog! Hopefully my next post won’t be as BLAH.

Angel Says:
August 8th, 2008 at 11:36 pm

I completely understand about having a parent who slacks off. My dad was the same way and it seriously pissed me off. Thankfully I’m married and I don’t have to worry about that anymore.

I’m so sorry to hear that Joe hasn’t had a lot of luck with the job hunt. I feel his pain because I lost my job back in May and it took me almost 2 months to find something. I hope that’s not the case with him.

Anyway, I hope things start to look up for you! If you need to talk, I’m here! *hugs*
Arielle Says:
August 11th, 2008 at 1:43 pm

You should be proud that you’ve managed to get where you are, especially considering the example your mother has set for you.
Sarah Says:
August 13th, 2008 at 12:17 am

I understand how you feel chica. I’m feeling the same The world improves and just when you’re at the point where you think things are going well it dumps something on you.
I hope things look up